Sometimes it seems that we can never do enough to prove to ourselves that we are worthy of peace, happiness and love.
Even though we may excel in one area of our lives and do amazing things, we find fault with ourselves in other areas. We may wake up in the morning feeling feel proud of the previous day but then later,after a difficult day, feel ashamed of a mistake we made. We may feel important around one group of people and insignificant around another.
There are millions of ways to measure our self worth, unfortunately we often rate ourselves based on where we are, who we are with, and our mood at the moment.
One way around all the ups and downs of self esteem is to just be...to just let yourself be...and when you do...you connect with perfection.
Perfection in and of itself seems challenging, but only because our concept of perfection is based on judgment and expectations. We think if we make a mistake then we aren’t perfect, if we aren’t happy then we aren’t perfect, if the sun isn’t shining then it’s not perfect...well, who decided those rules?
The reality is that a perfect life isn’t always sunshine and lollipops. Perfection comes from the lessons we learn and the mistakes that we make. A perfect garden comes from rain, cold, wind, and all the “imperfect” days which allow it to grow. The weather may not be “perfect” but the garden is.
We get caught up in our mind, that monkey mind that makes us feel guilty, ashamed, sad, scared, bored, or angry and we think perfection is nowhere near. We may make a mistake, show our ignorance, hurt somebody we love, or be hurt by somebody we love and we feel all messed up and far from perfect.
That’s why it’s important to set aside a few minutes a day to remember perfection is right there in front of us. We just need to reconnect with that place of perfection inside, that inner truth. We need to remind ourselves that if we take a pause, the present moment, in and if itself, is perfect.
That’s why we meditate.
When we meditate we reconnect with the perfection that comes from just being present. You may not sit perfectly straight, you may even fall asleep, you may think some crazy thoughts and feel difficult emotions, but as you sit there and practice meditation, you discover the moment is perfect.
Breathing in, breathing out, perfect.
You are everything that you can be in the moment. When you have sat perfectly for enough time, you feel refreshed and renewed, then you get up go about your day and after a while you’ll forget about how perfect you are, going about the busy day and get lost again in your judgments.
Over time, when you get used to sitting and experiencing a few moments of perfection here and there, you realize those moments carry you through the ups and downs of the rest of the day.
As you continue to practice you realize that you’re not as horrible as you think you are, you just allowed yourself to get caught up in the monkey mind and have lost touch with the perfection that comes from simply being.
Then you remember to sit still for a few minutes, breathe in, breathe out and there it is, perfection.
Perfection in the Moment! The only moment that matters!